People's Assumption

**I wrote and drew stuffs on it after I got home hihi

So I walked home from school another day. It was calming and nice to be honest, also a bit tiring but hey, nature!
On that walk, it made me think.
That day, my school held a conference and it's exhausting. I am responsible for the decorations and become some sort of a moderator for a session in that event. We hanged balloons, plaid curtains, and any decorations you can think of. It was fun and we had extra balloons to bring home. So, I brought one.
On the way home, the balloon was quite catchy though it's white. Kids and people stared at it as i passed by. It was quite amusing to see. Just think about it, they're assuming so much things.
Probably they're thinking I just attended a friend's birthday, aunt's wedding, someone's party but never a conference. Also, I'm assuming that they're thinking that ways. HahaH!
Maybe if it wasn't a balloon, if it's a bruise on my face, they will think someone hurt me, i hit myself to the wall, get into a fight and thinks I'm such a bad one. They never think i hit myself (not to the wall) but with a spoon, huge one. Funny. Hilarious because they won't expect that.
You know, sometimes in life you cannot expect. Impossible things you used to think about, may happened in a blink. I've come to the point where I go 'F**k it' because things are just unexpected. Since then, I use my imagination too much (Sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes not. Depends.) on situation and think the weirdest, possible/impossible things that may cause it or will happen next. Assumptions of us are normal and acceptable but really I don't know where I'm going with this but life is unexpected, so imagine. :)

Stepping Out From The Circle

Hi, I'm pretty bad at blogging.

To be honest, I've tried to write some stuffs on my old blog but I end up deleting that blog because I don't feel like it. I am not the best at writing but I'm pretty good at visual art like drawing, sketching and I could sing too (Even though that's not a visual art but okay).

What I thought about writing is you got to put efforts to make it sounds good and right. Vocabulary, grammars and stuffs like that are needed. Why are they needed? Well, for me writing is art and art is pretty much my whole entire life so far (you could say it is my heart, without art probably i would die because of boredom)

Composing letters so it would sounds right and so it will become a word. Then you compose those words you've found into a sentence, like this. By those sentences you've made, you'll make paragraphs then a story then after your readers finish reading it, they could conclude what you just told them and comprehend what you meant. Thus, writing is art. If you see those writing in details, you will started to wonder about the inspiration, where do the writers get this kind of idea, how complicated is this idea to write and etc. IT'S ART!!! WOO! but this art is pretty hard to do for me.

I don't feel confident enough to write and publish it or share it. Every time my school asked me to write something for the school newspaper, I would sometimes turn it down and ask if someone else could do that but that happen sometimes because by refusing to write for the school newspaper, my literature's grade probably would decrease and I don't want that. I don't like writing long stuffs because even though my head is full of ideas and crazy thoughts, but my mouth and hand can't figure it out how to express them in words. I usually draw but some people don't understand the meaning behind those drawings of mine. I like being with myself but sometimes I need someone else to hear my story or someone else to tell their story to me. Just communicating in general. I don't feel comfortable writing, blogging but I really do want to try to blog and become a blogger and like those quotes on tumblr it says, "Life begins at the end of your comfort zone" Right now, I'm trying get out of it. I want to taste my life, I want try something new and be something I never expected but of course, I am still myself. 

 So right now let me tell you the main idea why did i started a blog which is I want to learn to express myself with words. I've been keeping stuffs in my head too much and I just want to be more open to anyone. There we go, I really hope by blogging and posting stuffs here would help me a lot in communicating in words. 

My name is Ara.

I'm from Indonesia and it is nice to meet you.